Why I Decided to Blog

I like to write; I really do. Perhaps that is why I am majoring in English. I've tried to journal before and have been moderately successful. But a lot of times I get tired of journaling, and then I get caught up with how messy my handwriting is and how I leave out something that I mean to say earlier and it bothers me that my thoughts are out of order. Again, these quirks make me a great candidate for an English degree.

I think I'd enjoy writing more if I did it as a blog. That way I can separate the endless papers I write for class from writing about myself, my thoughts, my life. It will help me organize my thoughts. I am a very analytical person, and I need a way to process all the thoughts crammed into my head or it weighs me down.

I used to live life feeling like I had to separate my thought life from my everyday actions. I remember waiting for summer just so I could sit around and think all the thoughts I needed to think but never had time to think during school. That is such a bad way to live. Now instead of just doing the things I have to do like school (I have always been really driven in school and while being good at school is a blessing it is also a curse. More on this later I'm sure.) I'm learning how to carve out time to do the things I want to do like reading and biking and hanging out and learning guitar and spending time with God and, well, just plain thinking.

Furthermore, for the time being, I've decided not to tell anyone about this blog. I have always been really skeptical of blogs because, honestly, who cares what color you painted your bathroom or what trick you just taught your dog. But lately I've come across a few blogs that made me change (at least partly) my attitude towards it all and actually made blogging look appealing instead of making me roll my eyes. I'm sure eventually I'll tell my friends about this, but right now I need to know that my thoughts aren't being read by the entire world. I'm much to insecure for that. More on that later, too, I'm sure.

So, here's to taking time out of life's sometimes suffocating flow of activity to merely think about my thoughts!